Love, Poetry, Self-Improvement

If the Mountains Weren’t Too High

If the mountains weren’t too high, would I climb for you? If the valleys weren’t too low, would I slide for you? If the rivers weren’t too wide, would I swim for you? A wealth of knowledge within your mind, a wealth of ambition and strength in your soul, and wealth of beauty in my… Continue reading If the Mountains Weren’t Too High

Mental Health, Self-Improvement

Diagnosis

Diagnosis...they're handing it out to me like bills. Major Depression. Social Anxiety. Obesity. Diabetes. Sleep Apnea. Insomnia. Carpal Tunnel. Bell's Palsy as a teen. How am I even alive? How am I still striving? This isn't even mentioning past poverty, discrimination, loneliness, self-confidence, and other things that effect the diagnosis's above, but are separate issues… Continue reading Diagnosis

Mental Health, Self-Improvement

The Evening I Almost Checked Myself into a Mental Hospital

We are about to get real with this one. Yesterday, I almost checked myself into a hospital. I had a mental/nervous/panic breakdown where I could not move, I was shaking and trembling, and I had WAY too many thoughts in my head. All I could do in that moment is DM a friend who I've… Continue reading The Evening I Almost Checked Myself into a Mental Hospital

Self-Improvement

Beat the ‘Beetus

About a month ago, I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. All the days of mac n’ cheese and nachos finally caught up with me. Cheese was my stress food and fast food was my vice. I was working out an average of  2-3 days a week, but my eating habits was and still is… Continue reading Beat the ‘Beetus

Poetry, Self-Improvement

Wherever The Wind Blows

Sometimes I've wished to have a simpler mind. The kind that only creates one route with a sign. So many paths I want to take and people I want to be. Ambition is the mission, and vision is still the key. But I can't see the way, when I don't know it. I need guidance,… Continue reading Wherever The Wind Blows

Love, Mental Health, Poetry, Self-Improvement

Nearly There

I admit, I’ve been slipping on my self-care. Do I dare to live a life that doesn’t compare to a traveler nearly there? Is life particularly fair if your head’s stuck in the air? Got to wake up from this hell and get out of this nightmare. Maybe I should use the pair of my… Continue reading Nearly There

Mental Health

Mental health in an unforgiving world. (Journal)

I am seething with hate right now. It seems like road blocks are consistent in my path of growth. So I'm free-writing right now. Your eyes are my journal. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and social anxiety in 2018, around the same time I was attending Sam Houston State University for a Masters in… Continue reading Mental health in an unforgiving world. (Journal)