The Evening I Almost Checked Myself into a Mental Hospital

We are about to get real with this one. Yesterday, I almost checked myself into a hospital. I had a mental/nervous/panic breakdown where I could not move, I was shaking and trembling, and I had WAY too many thoughts in my head. All I could do in that moment is DM a friend who I’veContinue reading “The Evening I Almost Checked Myself into a Mental Hospital”

Beat the ‘Beetus

About a month ago, I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. All the days of mac n’ cheese and nachos finally caught up with me. Cheese was my stress food and fast food was my vice. I was working out an average of  2-3 days a week, but my eating habits was and still isContinue reading “Beat the ‘Beetus”

Do I offend?

What’s that smell? Do I offend? Does my presence hurt your senses? Sorry for not being clean, I just can’t seem to find the right soap. I keep trying different kinds that’s recommended from many friends, family, and professionals, but nothing seems to be working. I can’t shake it off. I used to think othersContinue reading “Do I offend?”

Wherever The Wind Blows

Sometimes I’ve wished to have a simpler mind. The kind that only creates one route with a sign. So many paths I want to take and people I want to be. Ambition is the mission, and vision is still the key. But I can’t see the way, when I don’t know it. I need guidance,Continue reading “Wherever The Wind Blows”

Nearly There

I admit, I’ve been slipping on my self-care. Do I dare to live a life that doesn’t compare to a traveler nearly there? Is life particularly fair if your head’s stuck in the air? Got to wake up from this hell and get out of this nightmare. Maybe I should use the pair of myContinue reading “Nearly There”

Mental health in an unforgiving world. (Journal)

I am seething with hate right now. It seems like road blocks are consistent in my path of growth. So I’m free-writing right now. Your eyes are my journal. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and social anxiety in 2018, around the same time I was attending Sam Houston State University for a Masters inContinue reading “Mental health in an unforgiving world. (Journal)”

An Agnostics’ Prayer

I come to you, battered and helpless. My demons have overstayed their welcome. Society and personal afflictions have kept me from you. Nothing on this beautiful earth truly helps to the extent of true peace, so I must look beyond. I lay in a dark and quiet room, alone, desperately looking for a way outContinue reading “An Agnostics’ Prayer”

Your life is a book. Control the Story.

The clichè phrase is, “Don’t judge a book by its cover.” But we don’t even get that chance with our own book. We have to read our lives, because it’s our story; and sometimes we feel like we can’t change our story. Thinking past things like religion, politics, science, etc, we tend to feel likeContinue reading “Your life is a book. Control the Story.”

Someone please share love’s location.

Will someone share with me love’s location? I can’t find this woman anywhere. I’ve checked bars, tea shops, the internet, the library, hell, I even check Popeyes from time to time. Every where I go, I keep an eye out for love. I haven’t spoken to love since 2016. I mean, she doesn’t return myContinue reading “Someone please share love’s location.”