Slow Down.

She told me to slow down. The best advice I may never take. My life is a race with no debate of who’s in place. I stare my future in the face as I’m running from my disgrace. But my heart is beating hard and I’m struggling to keep the pace. Too many plates inContinue reading “Slow Down.”

I’m more comfortable in my sheets.

I’m more comfortable in my sheets. Like an imaginative fortress, it blocks my body from the harms of the world. Nothing can touch me. Nothing can harm me. My mind should be able to relax. A long and irritating day in the outer world is the quickest way to bring me back to my happyContinue reading “I’m more comfortable in my sheets.”

Tired.

I am so tired. The screen blurs as I am forced to type for a paper due today. My head hurts as I talk to stranger among stranger for the benefit of my job. My body aches as I am forced to exercise for the sake of my health and life longevity. My mind depressesContinue reading “Tired.”

Who’s my hero?

I sit my apartment on Halloween night; actively ignoring my school work and have “My Hero Academia” on pause. I’m looking at the ceiling, thinking about my life, my recent therapy session, and my current situations. I’m just thinking, ” I aim to be so many peoples’ hero. But who is my hero?” Is itContinue reading “Who’s my hero?”

The Heart

Staring through the views of green, I’m seeing nothing but blurry scenes of trees and I’m thinking like what you mean? Losing your mind over this stuff you cant control, Draining you of your soul, keep your eyes on the road. Don’t look at what they’re doing, they ain’t you, You know what can do.Continue reading “The Heart”

What is my place of peace?

For so long, I’ve tried to find my comfort place in this world. When I was a child, it was my best friend’s apartment, when I was a teen, it was in a video game world, and when I was in college, it was a music studio. All of these places are still near andContinue reading “What is my place of peace?”

No Lights

Sun dimming down, it’s my only source of light. Only the flame of the candle can reach my sight. No sleeping tonight, because stress has taken a toll. No air, no heat, and no energy in my home. Sixteen, in my room, listening to my mother cry, And I have no control, because I’m tooContinue reading “No Lights”

Write to Sleep

My mind’s racing, not complacent, I’m dream-chasing. I can’t sleep, my thoughts are baking, they won’t be quiet. I need silence, but the mind won’t keep my fears private. I need out of it, trying to settle with some logic, But logic and empty pockets don’t match. I feel attached to the chains that keepContinue reading “Write to Sleep”

Diagnosis

Diagnosis…they’re handing it out to me like bills. Major Depression. Social Anxiety. Obesity. Diabetes. Sleep Apnea. Insomnia. Carpal Tunnel. Bell’s Palsy as a teen. How am I even alive? How am I still striving? This isn’t even mentioning past poverty, discrimination, loneliness, self-confidence, and other things that effect the diagnosis’s above, but are separate issuesContinue reading “Diagnosis”