I sit my apartment on Halloween night; actively ignoring my school work and have "My Hero Academia" on pause. I'm looking at the ceiling, thinking about my life, my recent therapy session, and my current situations. I'm just thinking, " I aim to be so many peoples' hero. But who is my hero?" Is it… Continue reading Who’s my hero?
Staring through the views of green, I'm seeing nothing but blurry scenes of trees and I'm thinking like what you mean? Losing your mind over this stuff you cant control, Draining you of your soul, keep your eyes on the road. Don't look at what they're doing, they ain't you, You know what can do.… Continue reading The Heart
For so long, I've tried to find my comfort place in this world. When I was a child, it was my best friend's apartment, when I was a teen, it was in a video game world, and when I was in college, it was a music studio. All of these places are still near and… Continue reading What is my place of peace?
Sun dimming down, it’s my only source of light. Only the flame of the candle can reach my sight. No sleeping tonight, because stress has taken a toll. No air, no heat, and no energy in my home. Sixteen, in my room, listening to my mother cry, And I have no control, because I’m too… Continue reading No Lights
I'm working on my future, because I'm tired of eating noodles. I could have been a shooter, but my mother kept me neutral. I could have dealt with dope, but the struggle gave me hope. Music let me cope with the troubles of being broke. Sitting in the dark praying to God for just a… Continue reading Long Way From Home
If the mountains weren’t too high, would I climb for you? If the valleys weren’t too low, would I slide for you? If the rivers weren’t too wide, would I swim for you? A wealth of knowledge within your mind, a wealth of ambition and strength in your soul, and wealth of beauty in my… Continue reading If the Mountains Weren’t Too High
Diagnosis...they're handing it out to me like bills. Major Depression. Social Anxiety. Obesity. Diabetes. Sleep Apnea. Insomnia. Carpal Tunnel. Bell's Palsy as a teen. How am I even alive? How am I still striving? This isn't even mentioning past poverty, discrimination, loneliness, self-confidence, and other things that effect the diagnosis's above, but are separate issues… Continue reading Diagnosis
We are about to get real with this one. Yesterday, I almost checked myself into a hospital. I had a mental/nervous/panic breakdown where I could not move, I was shaking and trembling, and I had WAY too many thoughts in my head. All I could do in that moment is DM a friend who I've… Continue reading The Evening I Almost Checked Myself into a Mental Hospital
About a month ago, I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. All the days of mac n’ cheese and nachos finally caught up with me. Cheese was my stress food and fast food was my vice. I was working out an average of 2-3 days a week, but my eating habits was and still is… Continue reading Beat the ‘Beetus
What's that smell? Do I offend? Does my presence hurt your senses? Sorry for not being clean, I just can't seem to find the right soap. I keep trying different kinds that's recommended from many friends, family, and professionals, but nothing seems to be working. I can't shake it off. I used to think others… Continue reading Do I offend?