I am so tired. The screen blurs as I am forced to type for a paper due today. My head hurts as I talk to stranger among stranger for the benefit of my job. My body aches as I am forced to exercise for the sake of my health and life longevity. My mind depresses… Continue reading Tired.
I may be too afraid to step in the name of love. For every-time I have a chance to move forward, I freeze. Colder than ice in front of a corner store. Colder than the Chicago breeze. Colder than frozen pizza. As I resemble the likes of Sub-Zero, it reminds me how I kill every… Continue reading Freeze in the Name of Love
Staring through the views of green, I'm seeing nothing but blurry scenes of trees and I'm thinking like what you mean? Losing your mind over this stuff you cant control, Draining you of your soul, keep your eyes on the road. Don't look at what they're doing, they ain't you, You know what can do.… Continue reading The Heart
For so long, I've tried to find my comfort place in this world. When I was a child, it was my best friend's apartment, when I was a teen, it was in a video game world, and when I was in college, it was a music studio. All of these places are still near and… Continue reading What is my place of peace?
My mind’s racing, not complacent, I’m dream-chasing. I can't sleep, my thoughts are baking, they won't be quiet. I need silence, but the mind won't keep my fears private. I need out of it, trying to settle with some logic, But logic and empty pockets don’t match. I feel attached to the chains that keep… Continue reading Write to Sleep
Diagnosis...they're handing it out to me like bills. Major Depression. Social Anxiety. Obesity. Diabetes. Sleep Apnea. Insomnia. Carpal Tunnel. Bell's Palsy as a teen. How am I even alive? How am I still striving? This isn't even mentioning past poverty, discrimination, loneliness, self-confidence, and other things that effect the diagnosis's above, but are separate issues… Continue reading Diagnosis
I want to be someone's 1st priority. Is that too much to ask? If I'm needed for help, royally, I'm down for the task. Yes, I am loved, and we all have our lives. But I can't seem to escape loneliness, to no one's surprise. I hate that I need it, attention, I… Continue reading 1st Priority
About a month ago, I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. All the days of mac n’ cheese and nachos finally caught up with me. Cheese was my stress food and fast food was my vice. I was working out an average of 2-3 days a week, but my eating habits was and still is… Continue reading Beat the ‘Beetus
Sometimes I've wished to have a simpler mind. The kind that only creates one route with a sign. So many paths I want to take and people I want to be. Ambition is the mission, and vision is still the key. But I can't see the way, when I don't know it. I need guidance,… Continue reading Wherever The Wind Blows
The clichè phrase is, "Don't judge a book by its cover." But we don't even get that chance with our own book. We have to read our lives, because it's our story; and sometimes we feel like we can't change our story. Thinking past things like religion, politics, science, etc, we tend to feel like… Continue reading Your life is a book. Control the Story.