mental – Fresh Air Considerations

Lifelessness

I still have goals to beat, places to see, and people to meet. In a moment of lifelessness I struggle to survive in hopes that I can live again. I sit between these walls in an attempt to escape death; so why do I feel like I’m deteriorating? Slowly peeling away at my soul asContinue reading “Lifelessness”

I’m more comfortable in my sheets.

I’m more comfortable in my sheets. Like an imaginative fortress, it blocks my body from the harms of the world. Nothing can touch me. Nothing can harm me. My mind should be able to relax. A long and irritating day in the outer world is the quickest way to bring me back to my happyContinue reading “I’m more comfortable in my sheets.”

I’m beginning to think..

I’m beginning to feel like love is not a matter of fate. Neither is it an automated process or something that just, “happens.” Love is just as much work as building a business or perfecting a skill. Love is a path that many do not have the patience to cross. Love is something that mayContinue reading “I’m beginning to think..”

1st Priority

I want to be someone’s 1st priority. Is that too much to ask? If I’m needed for help, royally, I’m down for the task. Yes, I am loved, and we all have our lives. But I can’t seem to escape loneliness, to no one’s surprise. I hate that I need it, attention, IContinue reading “1st Priority”

The Evening I Almost Checked Myself into a Mental Hospital

We are about to get real with this one. Yesterday, I almost checked myself into a hospital. I had a mental/nervous/panic breakdown where I could not move, I was shaking and trembling, and I had WAY too many thoughts in my head. All I could do in that moment is DM a friend who I’veContinue reading “The Evening I Almost Checked Myself into a Mental Hospital”

Mental health in an unforgiving world. (Journal)

I am seething with hate right now. It seems like road blocks are consistent in my path of growth. So I’m free-writing right now. Your eyes are my journal. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and social anxiety in 2018, around the same time I was attending Sam Houston State University for a Masters inContinue reading “Mental health in an unforgiving world. (Journal)”